here I wait

Well, the dinner is tonight. In fact my HS ex should be here in about 5 minutes. I am such a dork. For some strange reason, I'm uber nervous. Could it because he once again looks as good as he did back then while I don't? Am I afraid of what bad times we'll talk about? Or am I just scared he'll look at me and think "man, what was I ever thinking?" I guess I should pay attention to the door. The itunes is up rather loud! We'll see what tonight holds....